PEACE

18th of November

Still at the hospital,it’s 10.50am,the doctors just left after making their rounds,i  am scheduled for a minor surgery tomorrow to take out a lymph node to analyse.That will be the second time i am going under,i have never been admitted into a hospital all my life and this one time i have ,it seems the hospital wants to take all it can from me,well i won’t complain as long as i get better.

My day is usually boring,mostly lying down and reading a novel,i ran out novels to read until i got my laptop yesterday,now i have a good companion.

Being sick is not nice, but being sick in a foreign language is worse,notice i did not say in a foreign land,right from the point at which the ambulance came to pick me i had to have an interpreter,when i got to the hospital they had to look for doctors who speak English for me,i have like about five doctors on my case but i can tell you with all certainty that only two speak English fluently,meaning that they speak so well that they also know the medical terms in English.

I move around the ward sometimes and try to get a look at other patients,some are strong enough to move around like me,some are permanently confined to their hospital bed,one in particular  is always crying and wailing i think from pain,i remember talking with a friend when i was back home in Nigeria and he had jokingly said that he prays to just be sick for a day or two so he could call in sick at work and then i had told him then that being healthy is a blessing,we should never take our good health for granted.

I am in the Unit of Medicine in the hospital and with all the test i have been through and yet no definitive diagnosis,i can’t help feeling that i am in a scene from HOUSE,but i think my friends who have visited would prefer a scene from ER or GREY’S ANATOMY cause all my female friends are always asking if there are any hot and sexy male doctors,as if i would notice,i just want to get well and get out.

I hope it happens soon.

Time 15.54

The surgeon and the anaesthesiologist just left,came to assess me for the surgery tomorrow,its funny you know,i just have peace,through out all the test and exams including this proposed surgery, i have not worried or imagined the worst which is quite unlike me,my sense of imagination can travel places,you need to be inside my mind to see where it goes at times.I just have this sense of peace,i don’t know what the future holds but i know my life is in His hands and all things are working together for my good.